Realities of the Virus: The Heavy Costs Of Denial and Lack of Understanding

It’s another day in the life for me. It took pretty much all of last week to recoup from my father’s ordination. So, I didn’t really get many things done. I was very tired and a bit out of it all week. By the weekend, I was feeling very negative and sad. But, I consider it a small price to pay for being a part of such a wonderful weekend. So, I am not complaining too much.

Also, thanks to having to get ready for the ordination, I took a big leap forward in terms of grooming and personal care. So, I am happy about that, too.

This week, I started on yet another new pill regimen. So far, this one is showing some promise. But, I definitely need a few more days worth of observation to be able to say anything definitive. So, I’ll talk more about that later.

Today, I wanted to return to talking about more things that survivors wish more people understood.

There is a heavy emotional burden that comes with being a survivor. One of the potential side effects of long-covid is developing mental issues like depression and anxiety. A small group of people have even developed a psychosis.

But, on top of that is the emotional toll that the virus takes. There is survivor guilt. There’s the guilt of feeling like you are burdening other people with your need of assistance and inability to contribute as much as you used to. There’s the weight of not having any answers for what’s going on. There’s the exhaustion of waking up every day and realizing that you’re still not better. There’s the fear that you will never recover enough to function. There’s the sadness of missing the old version of you.

These are things that I am pretty sure are common to many people who suffer from chronic and serious illness. But, on top of all of those things is also the battle to be believed.

My heart is breaking as I see all the families being torn apart by covid denial.

Relationships with boyfriends, girlfriends, spouses, family, and friends are being strained. A lot of relationships are completely ending. All because the other party refuses to accept and acknowledge the survivor’s pain.

People who need help now more than ever are being left high and dry.

I am very lucky because most of those people who are closest to me believe me and support me. But, I did lose a few people over covid denial and it does hurt.

Unfortunately, for a lot of survivors, the online support groups that we have formed are the only support that they will get. Once again, you don’t have to take my word for it because I will be updating my gallery with more quotes from survivors.

My hope and prayer is that awareness and compassion will beat back fear, doubt, and anger and hopefully those who are suffering so much right now will find the peace, love, and support that they need.

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